Working with Blue Kyanite to Improve Psychic Abilities & Bring Opportunities
I’m putting these “diary posts” on my blog because on my YouTube channel, I started a project to see if crystals do anything. My first post is here and is about Blue Apatite. My goal: To see if crystals bring me opportunities, specifically in music and/or my blog. This is week two, so let’s see where I’m at!
Working with Blue Kyanite
Here is my first video where I discussed my project:
Saturday 5/23/20 – Blue Kyanite – Day 1
Today was a VERY busy and productive day. I got a lot done and I’m happy about that, but I still have a ton to do. My partner also came over in the middle of the day and we were going to work together, but then he didn’t want to so that threw me off a bit. It was a beautiful day out, but I didn’t have time to go hiking today. I didn’t even leave the house.
I did try to meditate with Blue Kyanite, it was a very specific Kyanite meditation and I think it could have helped, but I kept falling asleep. Every time the person would speak, I would jolt awake, then slowly fall asleep again. So, not very relaxing and also I don’t think helpful.
One thing I noticed right away is that holding Blue Kyanite gets glitter ALL OVER my hands. I don’t know how else to hold it or carry it. I might have to use a bag or something.
My cousins’ dog unexpectedly died, which was very hard and I didn’t take it well. I love these cousins and I knew and loved their dog well. My heart breaks for them.
So that really was it today, I kind of feel like a failure for not using it well today. Tomorrow I will try to hike, meditate, do Yoga and do my psychic meditating visions thing. Fingers crossed I get it done and it goes well!
Sunday 5/24/20 – Blue Kyanite – Day 2
I didn’t do much with Kyanite today and I feel bad. I’m sucking at this project. I just had a super busy stressful day:
I got up and my roommate was in the bathroom. We have one bathroom and he locks himself in there for hours at a time, so I went for a hike. I did take my kyanite and I found a toad! I love encountering animals on my hikes. I didn’t have my phone so I couldn’t take a pic which sucked. But it was a nice hike and the weather was beautiful.
When I got back, my roommate was still in the bathroom (he was in a total of almost 4 hours). I started recording music, which is fine. My partner was bringing his dog over because I was watching my dad’s dog for the weekend. They are friends, they’ve played together many times. For whatever reason, my partners dog tried to attack my dad’s dog. It was terrifying. No one was hurt thankfully, but it was a ton of chaos and commotion. We dragged his dog outside, and while we were outside assessing what to do next, my f*%king roommate COMES DOWNSTAIRS, LOCKS THE FRONT DOOR and goes back upstairs.
What the hell?? Doesn’t check to see if we are okay, doesn’t look to see if the dogs are okay, just…locks us out of the house? What the fuck. Luckily my partner had a key, but what the hell is actually your problem.So my partner left, I’m stressed the hell out but I try to get back to working on music. My roommate leaves at some point (he has broken lockdown/quarantine rules every single day) but honestly thank god he’s gone. I cannot stand him.
I tried to focus on a cleaning project and had the windows open to enjoy the weather. Then I realized how I really can only open the windows for like, 3 weeks a year here. I started thinking about this more and panicking until I ended up in a full panic attack. Couldn’t breathe, nauseous, couldn’t see straight. Grabbed my xanax bottle and lied down, the room was spinning.
Why is summer so short. Why are the good parts of life so short. Why does my living situation suck so much and why can’t I get the strength to leave.
After my xanax kicked in, I tried to do some yoga. I really did try in earnest, but I hate “shavasana” pose (literally lying there doing nothing) and half of the exercise was that. So I quit. Now here I am, thinking of everything I need to do tomorrow. I don’t know how I’ll work with kyanite tomorrow. I’m supposed to lie there for 20 minutes and have psychic visions. I’m going to really make it a point to try that.
I’m just so overwhelmed. I might need extra days to work on kyanite because I just don’t see myself being able to work on it.
Monday 5/25/20 – Blue Kyanite – Day 3
Guys I’m really seriously considering taking some drugs and trying this kyanite thing. I am NOT feeling this stone at all. I’m trying. I’m supposed to have “psychic visions” and thus far I’ve just had panic attacks every single day.
Wait…are those related? Are panic attacks precursors for psychic visions? That can’t be true. Panic attacks are horrible, physically and mentally. If that’s what psychic visions are, no thank you.
I also am so legitimately busy. I just cannot handle the mountain of work I have. I don’t know what to do. I’m exhausted.
I found this meditation VERY helpful (although 20 minutes is too long for me to sit still and think of nothing). I’m going to keep trying to meditate. The calming effects were quite nice:
Tuesday 5/26/20 – Blue Kyanite – Day 4
The weather has been beautiful the last few days. Sunny and mid 80s is my absolute favorite. I went for a hike with my Kyanite and tried to take a photo, but it dropped and a piece of it broke off. I saved the piece, I figure maybe I can use it for art or something??
My cousins are very into tarot cards and I’ve gotten some decks of my own. I rarely if ever use them, but last night I did a reading for a friend who lives in another country. I thought this might be a good test of my psychic abilities? Like, if I’m sort of accurate, maybe the kyanite helped?! I don’t know, I’m so confused as to what to do with this one.
Wednesday 5/27/20 – Blue Kyanite – Day 5
My friend loved my card reading! She said it was very accurate, which I love. I’ve gotten a couple of compliments on my card readings before, so I wonder if I might actually be good at it? Very exciting!
Today was another beautiful day. A little cooler than yesterday and overcast, but that made working outside much better. The humidity also makes my old knee injury flare up and get SO SWOLLEN. I didn’t go hiking or do yoga today but I did try meditating. I found a 30-day meditation challenge and I’m going to work on that. I hope I can get good at it.
I also spoke with a close friend I haven’t talked to in a long time, so that was nice. That’s pretty much it for today, not a lot happened crystal-wise.
Thursday 5/28/20 – Blue Kyanite – Day 6
Today sucked. Just everything was so stressful and busy, I had a tough meeting with my therapist about creating solutions. I just got completely overwhelmed.
While I was in my therapy meeting, my email starts EXPLODING with angry, unhinged messages from a client. We had been working together over the past few days and everything seemed perfectly fine, friendly and professional. Suddenly their personality did a complete 180 because I made a very small, instantly fixable mistake. I own up to my mistakes, but mistakes happen and this was easily fixable. The client blew up my email, sending text after text about how disappointed they are, demanding a refund (even though the project is almost done), what a bad experience this has been, etc. I immediately fixed the problem, during my therapy session. They were still not happy.
I need to remember that this isn’t about me. Yes, I screwed up, but this goes beyond that. I don’t know what this person is going through, so I am going to do my best not to take it personally. I did cry, and I’m not proud of that. I just am not prepared to have someone come at me out of nowhere for (what I consider) a minor error and berate me for an hour, while I’m in therapy already overwhelmed and emotional. Not a good day.
Thankfully, I have plenty of other lovely clients and I’m so thankful for them. This experience has made me even more grateful for the wonderful clients I do have. I’m going to walk my dogs and take my kyanite, breathe, and let it go.
Friday 5/30/20 – Blue Kyanite – Day 7
Today sucked. It was just a massively stressful, busy, overwhelming day. I have extreme job insecurity right now due to several related factors I mentioned yesterday, but I’m wondering/worrying about my future as a session singer. I may quit, or start working only part time, or maybe nothing will change and I’m flipping out over nothing. I hope it’s the latter.
But honestly I’m ready to be done with Kyanite. No offense, BK, you’re beautiful and I enjoyed looking at you, but I didn’t feel really any connection and I didn’t get any psychic abilities or opportunities. I know you probably have to work with this for months before you see any results, but I feel like a full week of working intimately with a stone is enough to tell you if you have any connection with it. I’m sad it didn’t work out.
Next up is Polychrome Jasper, also known as Desert Jasper. This is one of my favorite stones, I already have 2 of them so I think I’m just going to keep all 3 of them around me at all times.